In Dreams

There was some associate of George Harrison who last Sunday was quoted as saying "We have always existed" and also "We will always exist". It's a nice conforting belief. I have often stated that there seems no way in natural science to prove this statement. But one might protest that disproving such a statement is not all that easy, either. It would have profound implications for instance to those who believe there is salvation for Planet Earth by controling the population. If there is something cosmic about our appearence here on this planet in human form, then one can argue that one cannot erradicate the existance of any man, born or unborn. Such a belief in pre existance would pose no conflict with Calvinism, but rather, would complement it. Hartman has his belief still that it's the war like peoples that were able to breed the most children and hence warriers to dominate the planet. One could then start an argument that Evolution is the survival of the fittest and so that God using the human process of natural selection has made his will known, particularly if you're a Calvinist and therefore believe there is no logical possibility things could have happened any other way. I had a dream a couple of weeks ago that I was given a series of extensive revelations about the true nature of Man. And that I was planning to make a movie out of it expounding on my beliefs. Part of it stems from the closed portion of the letter "A", which is a mystic symbol for some organization, I just don't remember what. In the closed part of the "A" are all the secrets of the universe locked away. Part of this secret is that the key to the whole Universe lies in each individual atom and molicule in every living being. Indeed, I was going to begin this movie with the song lyric "Without going out of my door, I can know the ways of Heaven". That's what we all want to know is the ways of heaven. In my dream, George Harrison and Eric Claptin (who isn't even dead yet) occupy a superior place in the After Life to that of John Lennon. Part of the problem with death- - if you believe in the existance of "Eternity" is that the Book of Revelation says that not only the material world will be destroyed at the end of days, but Death itself will be done away with. One might argue that there is a logical difficulty in putting an end to that which has a negative existance to begin with. After all in order to have Death you have to have Time, and if you do away with Time, then Death has no power. That's a heavy concept to deal with, I know. Of course some native peoples believe in shall we say pharmicological help in seeking answers to Eternal Mysteries. There is a lot of talk about the year 2012 right now. There is enough material on the internet about the subject to satiate the most voricious speed reader. Besides the Mayan civilization, they go into the beliefs of the Hopi tribe. According to the Hopi, we have already had three cycles of destruction, one by fire, the next by ice, and the last by water in the great flood, with one more cycle to come. There is also a lot of talk about Callendars and something called The Long Count working with numbers of base twenty. The I Ching is even brought into it since 6 x 6 x 64 x 64 makes 26,000 years, which comproses the grand cycle of the zodiac by which the pole which is the spinning "top" of the earth makes one complete circle in the sky. Others might insistist they believe in Eternity because they just "know it". One of Black Bart's favorite adages is "You'll never run away from You". For this axiom to be true, then not even Death can camoflogue who we are. (Selah)

There is a movie called Dr. Fisher of Geneva. This is a movie about a bitter older man who is both mad at mankind, who aren't worthy of him, and also rage at God. He makes the point that while others "Hate" him, he "Despizes" all of them. You can't really Despize a man without personally being hurt by him or his kind, somewhere down the line. It would seem that Dr. Fisher despizes God. Could it be that God despizes mankind? He doesn't just hate us, but despizes us. Is it that God deep down resents human lusts and emotions? On the Jesus Christ show, Jesus admitted to "You know, living a life of perfection was no picnic". One could wonder just how much Jesus despizes the lusts and emotions of man. If one were to dream up an ultimate revenge against God, he would have to pick a form of destruction or "Deicide" that would be most detestable and unspeakable for the Almighty. Dr. Fisher liked to throw a lot of parties for the very rich, his "Toads". He said "The rich have no pride. The poor would never stand for my methods of humiliation. There is a man with an artificial hand, and Dr. Fisher would be a bit, shall we say, blunt, in referring to his disability. His parties in one way or another each would transgress social norms. In the movie "Spellbound" when Leo G Carol turns the gun around and decides to blow his OWN brains out, they had to construct a giant hand and a giant gun, in order to keep the whole picture in focus. I find this fact, shall we say, rather "metaphorical". Of course to impute mental illness to God or even psycho analise God at all some would say "To a hammer, everything looks like a nail". Let me tell you the dream sequence. Dreams are always much more interesting in the movies than they are in real life. There was a man named Dr. Edwards, who was an impostor of the real Dr. Edwards. He saw the real Dr. Edwards being murdered (by Leo G Carol) on a ski slope and the revolver burried in the snow. The new Impostor in his deluded state thought he WAS Dr. Edwards and he was scheduled to assume an administrative job of a Mental Institution by Leo G Carol. Of course all the people who know, knew there was "something off about this Dr. Edwards". You might say he was a mere shadow of his old self. The Impostor Dr. Edwards had a dream in which he was a card dealer in a casino with curtains with eyes all over them for walls, and patients from the Institution went around cutting the drapes with siscors. The dealer dealt the seven of clubs, and then said to the other player "Seven makes 21". At this time the guy he was playing blackjack with showed his cards and they were all blanks. At this time the Owner of the Casino came up and told the man that if he was going to raise a fuss about losing he was no longer welcome in this place. Our Impostor also viewed a skiing slope and saw a shaddowy man with no face drop a wheel, like a karmic wheel, down into the snow. Dreams are a lot easier to figure out when you know the set up. John Lennon, according to this writer, had an impostor stand in for him at various times over a period of several years. Could it be that the "Revolver" album is about the ultimate farce, of God committing suicide? This Impostor as life continued did not do so well because the murder rap was pinned on him though he was not guilty. And of course the real Lennon, er uh- - Dr. Edwards, was now dead. You know, sometimes if you figure out an awful secret the thing to do is to keep it to yourself lest you endanger your very Life. Some may say that the ability to "Talk the violent person out of killing - - " is a valued tallent. You know in the movie "Spellbound" they "cheat" with the special effects. This is a big secret.

I dreamed a week or so ago that I was involved in the making of a video for the Doors. And I was directing people to do this or that to ham up the scene. In one scene I was in some Van where all five (?) of the Doors were. (Perhaps their producer was with them) They were just getting up in the morning. My Dad was in this dream. I was screaming obscenities at him in this dream and I'm not even sure why. Perhaps just because I thought it would go good in the video. Perhaps it was something more. Sometimes you live your whole life not even knowing What you are mad it. Perhaps it's that man behind the wall laughing at the deception he has pulled off. And you're waiting for him to drop the karmic wheel so you can pick it up and become the dealer and be a winner for once. Tie always goes to the dealer. Well, it's just a thought.