Just The Usual Pie In The Sky Pep Talk

I missed dinner for this speech. Andy's sister was serving burritos and pork rinds and a can of Pepsi and a glazed donut for desert in the mid afternoon. The loudest applause line was when the President mentioned cutting taxes and ending all regulations and cutting spending. When the President discussed finding ways of eliminating government waste, the applause was not nearly as loud. This program is D O A, whatever it is. It seems very modest- - and we were told there was no specific way of paying for it. But the President offered a few suggestions. He said we could cut corporate taxes from 35% to 25%. On top of all the counter-productive trade agreements that have been disasters, the President wants to institute new ones. He wants to cut medicare, but he didn't say exactly how much. He did say he would try to get closing of corporate loopholes for the rich passed. So I don't know what's happening. The speech was a waste.

There is a power crisis here in southern California. Apparently the problem is wide spread, though it obviously doesn't affect me typing here. There is no power in southern Orange County or San Diego County or northern Mexico, and as far east as Yuma, Arizona. This could be because of the continued heat wave we've been under. They are promising us a break from that any day now. We should always say a prayer for people who are inconvienienced, because it could have been us, save for the grace of God. There was a "disturbance in the grid". I guess we should get Luke Skywalker on the case right now.

There is a terrorist threat. What 9 - 11 celebration would be complete without one of those. They say that two or three (they aren't sure) people were "admitted" to this country in mid August and they are believed to be planning some sort of terrorist explosives attack involving vehicals. And they say some trucks were reported in Kansas City. This is really vague. We don't know when and we don't know where and we really aren't sure who. And they tell us these reports are "unconfirmed" but credible. On top of these they have released new, alarming tapes from the Boston flight to New York of people saying "I think we're being hijacked". The commentator said "These tapes were prepared for the 9 - 11 report but just now being released. I fixated on that word "prepared". You can bet if they'd had them ten years ago they would have been released. As to the Pennsylvania crash- - it's pretty much confirmed that Flight 93 did not crash on that location on that day. There IS no debris and no bodies. Read one of our recent postings. They are all just trying to psyche us into the spirit of a perhaps- - - soon to be national holiday. That will really be a drag when congress passes that bill.

You know we don't have for the Republicans to take over to know what will happen. In England they have followed the republican agenda of cutting government spending and taking away services to the people. And the economy has continued to tank worse. According to Thom Hartman the states where taxes were raised and spending was raised are fairing the best in this recession. I don't see how people can refuse to learn from the example of Franklin Roosevelt. The one time he tried to please the republicans by cutting back spending a bit, the economic figures dipped. There was nothing in Obama's speech about changing tax regulations to stop subsedizing corporations from relocating overseas. For all the talk about "buying American" I don't see any legislation proposed to make that a reality. The President should institute new regulations on Wall Street if he really wants to prevent another crash. But he won't do that. In the history books the tea party will be viewed as mad, but the President's own response to this crisis will be viewed as "illogical". There is all this talk about bifercating cuts so that old people continue to "get theirs" but they stick it to the younger people, which is me at this point. I think if there ARE going to be cuts, everyone should suffer equally. I think most of the American people are bewitched by this false Meme that somehow "The government is like a giant family economy and everybody has to cut back and sacrifice". Nothing could be a more false or dangerous belief. But the trouble is the American public at large has a fundamental misunderstanding of how basic economics works. One of my "wise sayings" from a year ago March or something was "What if everybody did what you are doing?" Think about the consequences of THAT for a minute, won't you?

Meet "Bo"

THIS FILE HAS BEEN MARKEDLY ALTERED ON 9 / 9 / 11

OK cats and kittens, we aren't talking about my cat Bo. And we aren't talking about Bo Brady either. Yeah, Bo Brady has been on the show so long, he'd kind of like the brother you wish you had. We are talking about that "soul twin". I shudder to use the term "soul mate". I don't like that term anyhow. It's like a roommate share the same room and so a soul mate would share the same soul, which would get kind of crowded. And that's the whole problem is crowding. One strong factor (at least in my addled mind) against the cat, Bo, being anybody I had ever had contact with is that none of my Romulan friends ever noted this, even with years of opportunity. However it would go a long way twords Bo's whereabouts in just over a thirteen year span. I'm still keeping this option open. Of course the term of "hostile takeover" is used by the Federation. I want to tell you everything I know about Bo. He isn't some "evil demonic entity" who is rotten to the core or anything. Obviously if Bo were the cat, Bo this certainly wouldn't be the case. I sure hope you people remember our previous posting, or this one will have to be a whole lot longer. Again if you believe our stuff Bo and I literally shared the same Life in the mid 1800's. Let me tell you some things about Bo's character from his big claim to fame in the early 20th century. Bo would call himself just your normal average guy, and this is reflected in the novels he wrote. There was no literary pretense of posture or trying to cram some etherial moral point down your throat. Indeed Bo was opposed to this sort of thing in a novel. Bo would consider himself a loyal American, however with Southern sympathies if you research his family history. Bo in this most famous life had blue eyes. (the cat had terquoise eyes) Bo did not have "propriatory rights to his body". I did. (That explanation has already been covered) Where Bo and I differ is that he is much more than I to put up with a lot of formal education shit and learn a lot of stuff you'll only forget as soon as possible anyhow. He's much more inclined than I was to put up with being in a bad marriage. Bo was an avid letter writer. Bo is of course a nickname his then wife gave him. Bo's inclination to "go along to get along" in my opinion is a trait he has to a fault, and it has served him ill. Although I will say that it's the cat, Bo, she was picky about her friends. I don't have the bullshit tollerance threshhold that he has. If this article is "Meet Bo" then I guess we are forgetting about Bo's first album that wasn't even released in this country called "Please Torture Me". As to that World War II incarnation- - when Bo died it was a nine year old boy, and it was from a family that wasn't even on our side, if you catch my drift. Even in this life Bo was regarded as a rather "dim bulb". But Bo is not unintelligent. He just comes off that way sometimes. Although here again, if you're talking about the cat, she always had a perky expression. I want to skip to the fall of 1989. Several things happened them that aren't really related to each other. First of all early October was my last contact for a long time with my Romulan friends. Also October was the last contact with Stewart Sutcliffe for several years. The fall of 1989 was also the first time in years for another popular bedroom activity, if you know what I mean. On a Star Trek episode there was an episode involving "Q" with a "pretty in pink" Amanda. "Q" regarded her as a possibly "Hybred freak that needs to be destroyed". You know any child of mine would be regarded as a half space alien freak. We talked about certain events in the word file "Stealth" in the spring of 2005, done in white and purple decore. I'd like to tell you about it sometime. Make an appointment with me after I'm dead. So there was an "Amanda" born. (No DNA test was ever performed, but you already knew that) Here is another of these time coincidental things to watch. Ketih Relf of the Yardbirds is said to occupy Amanda's body for the first few years. Stewart occupied the body of a new baby at my parent's old church called Christian - - last name Johnson. Both of those "sougerns" lasted a few years but are unrelated. I often referred to Amanda as "smiley" because she had such a pleasent disposition. That leaves Bo who "departed" - - probably the fall of 1989. Now we come to another "last" that occurred during this period. On August 30th of 1989 I recorded a fragment of the George Harrison song, "Cheer Down". I had the idea there was some "message" in this song just for me so I looked up the lyrics yesterday and nothing. I can't make heads or tails out of it. Another "last" of the period was I quit smoking around the fall equinox and I did not again resume regular smoking till late October of 1994, which would make five years. Though I remember I did buy a pack or two of cigarettes in late Summer of 1991 and maybe I did other times, too, but it wasn't a habit. I was largely smoke free for five years. As you know I've never been able to get in contact with George Harrison after he died, causing me to pose the question "Where is Willberry Land?" We've established Neil Asphanol is with him. As to the cosmic composition of the five Willberries, Roy Orbison was jinxed by Jeff Lynne's Rizzonian association. And Bob Dylan, of course is an Andromeda A. Tom Petty, proudly from Gainsville, Florida- - is said to have some very powerful spiritual protectors. But I don't know anything about them. Actually this album with "Cheer Down" on it was the last new album George Harrison released in a long, long time. When dealing with Bo, one should not confuse him with Dorian, and I'm not discussing this now. But back to the whole "mental crowding thing" these "thoughts of my karmic past" departed by November. Nobody on the Other Side seems to know where "Bo" is. They know who I am referring to but they don't know where he is. However I did remember something actually not real new about Bo. I think Bo was French an incarnation maybe in the 1700's. I think he was in some POW camp and calling for water and being mocked by his captors because maybe he'd get some occasionally. But I have no idea what war that was. Of course with Rush there is a French connection, and Stu indicates it's Alex Liefson the guitar player who he was associated with. In this same incarnation he probably knew Jim Cooper's wife, Shelly. Also in this life he "knew Tawney Little rather well". The transflation is suggestive of sexual intamacy. Stu told me today that is there is not some sort of "French karma" in an individual then cross that suspect off your list. But I'm thinking that in the early fall of 1989 perhaps Bo finally went off to some place nice on the Other Side. Anyhow, this file was updated and "corrected" today. It this file contradicts that "Late Addendum" thing it's because I have revised my assessments. It's only been two days. We all make mistakes.

No Apparent Winners in Republican Debate

First of all the debate was poorly promoted in terms of the time it would be starting. I found out the debate was even in progress at 5:30 PDT in an off hand remark on the news. Otherwise you'd never know it was going on. It's over the dinner hour in the western part of America. The eight participents were John Huntsman of Utah, Rick Santaurum, Congresswoman Michelle Bachman, Texas Governor Rick Perry, Mitt Romney, Newt Gingrich, Kane, the Pizza guy, and Ron Paul of Texas. It would have been helpful to put captions on saying who was speaking at any given time because it might be confusing for some. Often the questioners would address a candidate as "Governor" or sometimes even "You". Rick Perry neither self-destructed nor did he shine above the rest. With eight people on stage it's hard to excel. I must say that I did like the set design. Romney had an idea that was downright appealing that I'd never heard before and that is that people in the middle class earning under 200,000 - not have to pay ANY capital gains or accrewed interest taxes. That would definitely stimulate the economy. Many candidates said Keynsianism was dead. That is a lie. They say "It's a good thing we had Obama's experiment now because finally we know for sure that it doesn't work". This is another lie. Gingrich and Perry talked a lot about immigration. Everybody wants to build a fence spanning the 2,500 mile border complete with electronic detectors. Romney spoke of "turning off the magnate". If you ask Larry Elder what that magnet is he'll say that it's the fact that we have a minimum wage here and if we only lowered our wages to the level they are in Mexico there would be no problem. So I'm wondering whether "turning off the magnet" was dog whistle speech. Gingrich and Romney said they would both fire Fed Chairman Ben Vernanke because "he had produced the worst inflation of any Federal Reserve Chairman". This is a really whopping lie. Gingrich wants to sell off Alaska to the industrialists to raise revenue that way. There was talk about how a lower unemployment rate generates revenues. You are singing the liberal's song when you get on that note. And there was a lot of talk about education and vouchers and abandoning the public school system and further weakening teacher's unions. And of course there is the requirement that all foreigners learn English within a specified time, as well as American History. I would suggest that some of the people on stage learn American history. In other areas Rick Perry is glad that President Obama did not close down Guantanamo Bay. Both Rick Perry and Michelle Bachman condemned our support of the Libyan Rebels even if it did topple Qadafi. This is because they say the upshot was "a drop in oil revenues". Bachman wants to drill in the everglades. Perry and others repeated the sentament about how Science has become politicized and that global warming is an "unestablished theory" and Bachman said it was ruining our economy. But the President was praised for abolishing certain ecological regulations. Neither Gingrich nor any others were inclined to attack former President Reagan, even when he was attackable, like on amnesty for illegal aliens. What I failed to hear were any positive suggestions at all that would really work. They seemed to be just going for the applause lines, which they got plenty of.

I’d like to talk a little more about this “conspiracy” theory stuff on the last posting. First of all it isn’t a “theory”; it’s conspiracy Fact. Evolution is a theory. The Big Bang theory is a theory. This is fact, and documented. Yesterday afternoon I was looking at the collapse of each of the twin towers over and over from different angles. What strikes you is the enormous amount of debris flying out. They say objects were propelled in excess of sixty miles per hour. Of course even ten years later you’re struck anew with the sheer horror of the event and how utterly helpless people felt. And yet we are told that Dick Chaney watched the event Live and showed no emotion at all, akin to a convicted murderer being gives a Death sentence. Perhaps you think it would be due to compression from the pancaking of floors. But structural engineers say that the “pancake effect” did not occur. You look at how all kinds of buildings come down. Some are smoother than others. Some are so smooth it’s as though the building was being lowered on a lift. With others you see large segments that don’t fall straight down. With the Twin Towers clearly you see an orchestrated take-down. It was made known to me that these demolitions take days or longer to plan. However remember that Bush was on one of the longest vacations there at the Ranch any president has taken. And I misspoke when I said the NORAD regulation was changed one day before 9 – 11. It was actually several weeks before 9 – 11, but it was switched back the day after. People don’t believe that a president could be such a sociopath that he would want to destroy three thousand lives just to “gain political capital”. In an 1999 interview Bush said that if he becomes President he’s going to go to war to gain political capitol and “have a successful Presidency”. As you know, bush was mocking the idea of a condemned criminal pleading for their life like Carla Fe Tucker did. He was mocking her. And when he did that whole routine about “Where are those weapons of mass destruction? - They aren’t over here, or over here”. Would anybody but a sociopath make light of such a tragic miscalculation? We know Bush has sociopathic tendencies. He’s the ones who used to put firecrackers up the rears of chickens and watch them explode. There had to be something a little pathological about his mother, too, if that “fetus in a jar” story is true.

What I’m kind of wondering about now is the mechanics of actually recruiting people for a planned destruction of the Twin Towers. Just how would you broach such a subject. On a smaller scale there was a Star Trek episode involving Commander Reyker I may have discussed before. He was told of a secret clandestine plan to nab secret Romulan devices. He was told to keep the plan secret from his commanding officer, Captain Piccard- - but that Picard, unknowingly was to lead a secret mission up this “asteroid orifice” to the place where the Romulan cloaking device was. Finally Reyker decided to come clean and said “Until now I had the luxury of stalling for time. But now I can no longer do it”, so he told his captain everything. You don’t lie to a superior officer and a trusted friend. There is no room for the Oliver North’s in the world. People have a tendency to want to believe a small variance from an “official story” but something as fantastic as the conspiracy “Fact” people state is beyond their ability to emotionally process. It’s as though their mind shuts down. I’m sure psychologists have a name for this phenomenon. (They have a term for everything) They say when the law is on your client’s side, stress the law. When the facts are on your client’s side, stress the facts. When neither the law or the facts are on your client’s side, -Pound the Table. You know there is an Italian proverb that goes, “You no play-a the game; you no make-a the rules”. What this means is you don’t place people in office whose primary loyalty is to taking down government entirely. There used to be certain standards of conduct in Wasshington that you didn’t violate. Just as you don’t make someone a Minister of the Gospel without years of study in some theological seminary. There are too many Sarah Palins out there who think political office is like having your picture on the front of People magazine or something. I think one of the best things about seeing Rick Perry face the public tonight is that I think he’s going to implode. He’s going to self-destruct. Don’t ask me how, but just watch. He’s too much of a green horn for the high stakes of a presidential campaign. Personally I find it really hard to accept the idea that History will never “catch up” to either the 9 – 11 conspirators in the Bush government – or the Tea Party crowd. These things take time. They say justice is blind. It doesn’t matter who you are or what sort of power you used to have- - one day there comes a day of

- THE - REYKER - PHENOMENON -

Now I am struggling as how to “set up a theory for my readers” that I don’t believe myself but which was peddled to me. I was out on the patio a few evenings ago having a smoke after it had gotten completely dark. . Earlier I had been thinking in terns of “Nirvana” and all that Buddhist stuff (which in turn made me think of Kurt Cobain to begin with) I was musing what Kurt Cobain would even think of the idea of “bifurcation of souls”. It sounds absurd and contradicts my own “ontological sensibilities”. A few minutes later I got a response from an emissary of Kurt Cobain. Kurt says he remembers my playing drums, besides bass, in jams with him. He says “It was before Dennis came on board”. I had thought that I never saw John and Stu playing together on a recording. I was reminded of January first 1995 and also a few days later when John Lennon recorded “Listen to the Rhythm of the Falling Rain” with Dennis on drums and Stu on bass. I was also told that both this song and “That Girl Is Mine” are both “Sevener” compositions. (Half Romulan and half Bajoran) I was told that this notion of mine was called “The Reyker Phenominon” because of that Star Trek episode where Reyker was divided in a transporter mishap. He said that while unification can occur- - it can’t occur in a hetrogenious fashion This Federation guy (a different one) said “Executing the unification procedure in the manner that you have proposed would at least be highly problematic, and probably impossible”. I thought, “Well, at least I know where they stand on that issue. I guess I still have trouble wrapping my head around this whole “Twins phenomenon”. Of course I am not the first to ponder this. There have been many reports in the media of Twins having this “mysterious link” but I thought it was so much convienient bullshit. They have even talked of transplanted organs “identifying with their old bodies”. Maybe Tertulian has no problem with the soul being linked to biology or genetics, but I do. And I’d like to find someone supporting my point of view.

. I wanted to talk more about the Mal Evans visit this morning. The whole September 7^th thing came up. In a previous life in 1881 I referred to the date as an “odoripherous date”. With good reason. Mal seemed to concur in this sentiment, which puzzled me. Then he launched into a rant against Buddy Holly and said while he was reasserting his power in 1992 after an absence at his post, he and others came up with the theory that Buddy Holly’s soul became “demonized” after death, and he quotes Richi Vallenz dialog (almost word for word like the movie) where Richi wins the coin toss and gets to ride in the plane that fateful night and not shiver in a long ride on a bus with his cold. Richi says he had kind of a “funny feeling” when Buddy said to him “You’re among the stars now”. Around May of 1992 there was a really strange roomer about Buddy Holly such that it still freaks me out nearly 20 years later. Also Mal and others with him today broached an idea completely alien to anything the Federation ever told me before, the “bifurcation of a soul” kind of like a stock split. So the life I lived in the other paragraph actually included “Bo”, who was a part of “Me” at the time and so now “Bo” has my memories. And since our souls are the same substance, I retain some of his memories from Austrailia - - and the Beatles aren’t the only ones that had bad experiences there. Oh, and the other half of “Me” - - try this on for size. Mal has been saying “You have been incorporating a lot of Yiddish words into your conversation lately”. I wasn’t aware I was. Mal and the others said that after the “stock split” in the 1880’s I was a Jew in New York City. I don’t know; that’s pretty trippy. So just what did I do in that life anyhow? Obviously I didn’t live very long in that life - - just like Bo didn’t. Was I a walk in? I guess they were digging the first subways then- - was I involved in that? So was I tripped out with electric lights? Or did I take it for granted? I asked Mal why he never said anything about soul bifurcation before? He said ‘I never said it didn’t exist”. I said “Well if souls can do that can they combine with different souls to form a whole new synthesis?” He said “I’m not allowed to comment on that”. It’s just one of those things that in my mind I assumed could never happen. Although I have previously thought of the idea of the human spirit-force being a “fungible” commodity, which means that it can be used as a commodity, like oil or wheat. [added tonight: Mark Campbell wrote a piece "Face the Mighty Waterfall" at the beginning of 1983 which alluded to the soul being shall we say "mixable". The problem is that if me and "Bo" are so close, how come I have virtually no idea of what "Bo" is doing now? Call it my suspicious mind but too often when people begin "confiding things" and broaching ideas that up till now had been secret, there is usually some kind of ulterior "modas opperandi" that is impelling them. (Selah)

LATE ADDENDUM: I left a question hanging that I think I have an answer to this evening. The answer came to me earlier this evening as I was sitting out on the patio a little after seven. Where did "Bo" go? Does anybody know how to sell "reunification". When might have it occurred? As you know it was around August first 1985 on a hot evening at the Bosc house when I had the Seventh Day on and looking forward to hearing "Dream Police" later in the evening. Apt title. Because this guy named Rick, who is a friend of Frank's - had the idea to pray for me. I think he even laid hands on me. Anyhow that night I had some really strange dreams that were like reality - like the stuff in them had actually Happened! I continued to get these "false memories" of events through about 1989. You can check the historical record for this. Most of these "flashbacks" seemed demonic and alien somehow, as if some demon had entered my body that summer 1985 evening - and never left. In case you are wondering- - HIS life before 1985 - - for ten years previous - -was in another body. Wickipedia confirmed some vague suspition or "thought" I'd had about that I won't repeat. Bo's whereabouts from early 1968 on back are kind of accounted for. Actually you can back up the date further to March of 1983when I repeated some witch's incantation one day in the library thinking it would get rid of a really bad headache I had that day. I think it was an allergy to those blue flowers at the Bosc house that Toby the dog died from, and one day my mother felt ill working around these blue flowers. Soon thereafter I had a flash of a life as a child in Europe in the early forties and late thirties. That was a bad time. It's one that we're not talking about. But this child died before the War was over. Later in the spring of 1983 was the Austrailian incarnation that is so strange it's too bizzare to have happened. If I have any years wrong I'll change them. I had this feeling in the spring of 1983 I was somehow "losing my center". It could be demons. It could be mental suggestion from an as yet unknown source. After 1989 I stopped being plagued with this stuff. That's good news. I believe "false memory sidrone" can and does happen. Whether it's demonic or what. But in my oppinion this "alien force" doesn't have my en-grams and as such I would regard it as hetrogenious from myself. OK, over and out.

New Evidence Surfaces in 9 - 11 Conspiracy

Nobody likes the term "conspiracy theorist", and the term "Truther" is little better because it reminds people too much of "Birther". Actually there is no "mystery" any more. Yesterday's conspiracy theorists are standing on today's solid facts beyond dispute. Conspiracy theorists are not like some police liutennant that looks over a murder case he's trying to piece together and gets this nebulous feeling "things just don't add up". It's gone bay beyond just "not adding up". Yesterday I received an E mail from my brother pretty much removing all doubt. Vincent Bugliosi put out a book a few years ago saying that Bush, Chaney and Rumsfeld ought to be brought up on war crimes. But they also ought to be indicted for staging 9 - 11. And I'll go further than that. I believe President Obama ought to be indicted as an accessary after the fact, and as such he needs to be Impeached and removed from office. I'm going to give you a full bill of particulars at the end of this posting but right now let's just hit some of the highlights. First of all Osama Bin Laden was never put in the FBI most wanted list for master-minding 9 - 11. He had already been put on the list in 1999 and the charges do not include master-minding 9 - 11. This obviously explains President Bush's strange apathy every time he was asked about Bin Laden. We have since learned he may well have been working as a special agent on OUR side in Pakistan. I was scanning down the twelve items on this list and my eyes fixed on the one about Shankelfort, Pennsylvania or whatever field where Flight 93 went down. I was flabberghasted to learn that there IS no site there. There is a hole in the ground too small to have been made by a 767 that crashed. There was no plane. There was no luggage. There were no bodies at all and not one drop of blood has been recovered from the site. In fact Donald Rumsfeld claimed later on TV that "Flight 93 was shot down". Of course the "record" is that it Crashed. That's what we were all told. But this is still a lie within a lie. Because Flight 93 did not crash in Pennsylvania at all but rather around 10:45 Flight 93 is on record as having landed in Cleveland. There was talk of hijacking and all 200 passengers were taken to some room to be debriefed. And we don't know what happened to them. To add to this some lady by a lake back in Pennsylvania says that she did see a small plane bank and go down. When she tried to inform the FBI that it was not near the size of a 767 the FBI flatly told her she was "wrong", just like Men in Black or something. Even if our people shot down the plane, why didn't they just come out and inform us all that it was necessary and we all would have understood.

We come to the Ground Zero site itself and firemen say that there was "molten metal" - - existing in rivers under ground literally weeks after 9 - 11. The problem here is that jet fuel cannot possibly generate that kind of heat. Furthermore in German footage of the World Trade center- - shows a woman waving right through the hole in the building made by the jet. And unlike the Obama Birth Certificate- - - there is absolutely no evidence of computer fakery in this image. So people were alive in a building that was supposedly as hot as molten metal. Of course we have all seem the demolition (?) photographs. There was another building, the Solomon Brothers building, that also went down. However the collapse of this building was announced 30 minutes in advance in a BBC news report. And people have pretty much admitted this building was deliberately taken down by the government. But the most damning point is that a false explanation was being faboricated by the government as a cover-story for this take-down. Also the Solomon Brothers building was rebuilt and this has not been talked about by the news media because they want ground zero to be some "perpetual shrine' or something. We all got on the Chinese' case for not talking about their bullet train crashes except to here of the "heroism of those who came to help". But there is no talk at all of what CAUSED these trains to crash. This is how it is with 9 - 11. They made Flight 93 into a good movie and it "tells a good story". But whether it is actually the Truth is quite another matter.

Then we have the hijackers themselves. The report says that the nineteen hijacker bit was a myth. There were never than many. But that many were Saudi nationalists there is no dispute. What you don't know if that three of the hijackers turned up alive. They aren't telling you this in the media. Of course the whole Bush connection with the Saudis or how it's the Saudi Arabians that wanted Saddam Hussein taken out- - is also not discussed. Of course as to the whereabouts of Bush verses Chaney- - you know all the lies told here. Dick Chaney says he did not want the President returning to Washington. According to President Bush "I wanted to return to Washington but all the phone lines to Washington were down". Between THOSE two choices, Chaney's version is closer to the Truth- - but it was still not the truth.

Finally and most indicting of all is the whole NORAD contraversy. They day before 9 - 11 Bush, Chaney and Rumsfeld changed long standing FAA regulations. It's established fact that if a plane diverts from its course you'll have NORAD agents on its tail within twenty minutes ready to take down the plane if necessary. And yet the flight pattern of the 9 - 11 hijackers was so erratic that it would have generated multiple alerts of such a nature. But meanwhile for a two day period, from 9 - 10 to 9 - 12 Bush switched control of these matters from NORAD to Donald Rumsfeld personally. People are asked to believe that all the erratic flight paths were ignored. AND we are all asked to ignore that "a chain of errors" of a million to one probability all occured at once - where all of the military planes were about as far from Ground Zero as they could get. Some have said that someone was leading them in "false flag drills" or going on some super-abondance of "War Games" activities, such that when the real thing came, they wern't ready. This is not a matter of speculation but fact and AF pilots will testify to it. This obviously is a criminal "gross neglence" at the least. But "change" doesn't even enter into the picture. This whole thing was planned so the scenario that developed was a virtual certainty. And the media isn't talking about it. Even Thom Hartman is afraid to talk about this. It's probably because he wants to keep his job. Of course when you read the official 9 - 11 government report you get things like "The Comission IMAGINES this happening or imagins that happening. OK, here is the report as sent to me by my brother. I hope the links are all still live because obviously they are informative.

1. Why did the news agencies report that WTC 7 collapsed almost 1/2 hour before it did, even though it was not hit by a plane, only had a few floors on fire, and gave no indication that it was in any serious danger?
2. Why do we still believe the tale of the 19 hijackers when so many of the accused hijackers showed up ALIVE within days? And why do we still believe the fable of the 19 hijackers when the FBI admitted that they are not sure about either the identity of the hijackers or if there were any hijackers at all?
3. Why was WTC 7 rebuilt, reopened and reoccupied with no press attention? Wouldn't this be an important victory in American resolve and perseverance?
4. Why were the NORAD rules changed for the first time several weeks prior to 9/11, taking responsibility/authority for shooting down hijacked planes away from NORAD military command for the first time in its history, and given to a civilian, Donald Rumsfeld, and then returned to NORAD the day after 9/11?
5. Why would hijackers planning on attacking NY and Washington DC drive from Florida, pass both DC and NY, and drive all the way to Maine and hinge this huge operation on a connecting flight from Maine to Boston, where we are told they hijacked their plane? Why wouldn't they fly out of any of the airports that are visible from their targets, like Newark, La Guardia or JFK...or even some of the smaller local airports that would have given them a clear easy path to their target and reduce the amount of time that our air defense systems would have to stop them?
6. Who placed all of those put options on the airlines just prior to the event, as if they knew that the stock prices on those specific airlines would lose a huge amount of value?
7. Why did George W. Bush's Secret Service detail not rush the president to safety when it was evident that the nation was under attack? If the nation was under attack, and they did not know the scope of the attack, and the president's location was known, how did they not worry about being attacked in Florida?. Why did they act as if they knew that there was no threat? And why, when our nation was under attack, did the president not rush into action? If you say he was concerned about upsetting the children, you are the ultimate apologist. He could have told them that his mommy was on the phone and he had to see what she wanted. Our county was supposedly being attacked and he/they waited 20 minutes before they moved. This is the smoking gun of smoking guns.
8. Why did the FBI never list Osama bin Laden as being wanted for 9/11? Actually, we know this one...because they admitted that they had no evidence linking him to the event.
9. Why was their molten metal flowing under the wreckage of the WTC for months? No jet fuel can melt metal, and nothing explainable could melt that much metal and keep it hot enough to remain molten for a month.
10. How did a passport of one of the so called hijackers make it through the huge fireball and end up on the street?
11. Why have photos from the 80+ cameras confiscated at the Pentagon never been released?
12. Why did the airplane that supposedly crashed at Shanksville vaporize so that nothing remained, not bodies, not luggage, not metal, - nothing - for the first time in aviation history? However, we are told that even though the plane vaporized at Shanksville, a hand-written note from a hijacker was found.

Of course, there are so many more. We deserve the answers. We deserve the right to ask these questions in public forums like the corporate media....who will not touch them with the proverbial ten foot pole. We have gate keepers on the Internet who actively ridicule and dismiss anyone who dares to raise these questions. Will you be one of them? Or, after really thinking about them, will you hope that one day, when we know what went on before, during and after the attacks on 9/11, - we can all say: "I did not know this, but I'm now absolutely convinced that it is true." This was a link that my brother, Al sent me tonight. It was submitted without editorial comment.

ED RAWLANS TIRED OF DOING IT WITH MICHELLE BACHMAN

PULLS OUT DUE TO EXHAUSTION

Ed Rowlands jumped the Republican party in 1992 to work on the unsuccessful Ross Perot presidential campaign. After this, republicans welcomed him back into the fold. But then he headed up the Michelle Bachman presidential campaign. However since now he Bachman as no longer a viable Presidential candidate since Rick Perry came in and "sucked all the air out of the room" as far as the Tea Party nutcase vote is concerned, Rowlands now says he is "tired". He's 68 and so is sitting this one out. People say that the Republicans still don't have the nerve to put a woman at the top of the ticket. Sarah Palin was making speeches yesterday where she sounded like a candidate for President but she wont run. Palin worships the all mighty dollar too much and she's still pulling in a hefty salary from FOX news. Other Republicans who had gotten FOX salaries have quit when they declared for President. Now everybody is piling on Rick Perry for his record as a spender in Texas, saying that it was "accounting tricks" that enabled him to show such a rosy balance sheet. In other news apparently James Hoffa Jr delivered a speech yesterday when he spoke of "taking down these sons of bitches" referring to defeating certain office holders at the ballot box. Unfortunately FOX news clipped out the line about "at the ballot box" and left the implication that Hoffa was advocating killing people. Of course for all my contact with dead people I haven't heard so much as a peep from Jimmy Hoffa in 36 years. But apparently now they are saying that conservatives will say that President Obama should apologise personally for Hoffa's remarks. This would be just another effort to styfle frank speech, which we need more and not less of. As to the topic we didn't talk about yesterday, we may pick it up on Thursday. This is what the Federation refers to as the "Reyker Phenominum" We'll explain that one. We need to "set it up for you" so it makes sense. Now they are talking about Dominionism on the Stephanie Miller show. Of course I sense Dominionism is the coming thing among right wing theologians. It was a long standing doctrine that has always been condemned as Hericy in the past. But it wouldn't be the first time that yesterday's "Hericy" became today's foundational theological Truth.

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Presenting "Guess Who I Was In a Previous Life", a collection of Dylan songs, glean from hints while scowering the internet on Sunday. These are a bunch of songs that all point to a previous life. Here is the partial line-up. Subteranian Homesick Blues, Ballad of Frankie Lee and Judas Priest, The Drifter's Escape, Santa Fe, Clothesline Saga, Percy's Song, Long Time Gone, Joey, Knocking on Heaven't Door. These last two are performed line on the "Dylan and the Dead" CD which I own. Of course I am known for singing "Knocking on Heaven's Door" at Green Harbor on open mike Kerioke day. We'll have a bunch of new shocks to your system on Thursday.

The President and the "Void of Course Moon"

Today we celebrate Labor Day. From that Virginia republican’s “response” to the Presidential weekly address, you’d never know that Labor Day had anything to do with Unions or the struggle to establish unions. Of course Hartman often plays that 1936 campaign speech of Franklin Roosevelt where he takes the corporate bosses on directly in a way no president today, particularly a Black president, would have the balls to do today. FDR said “These economic royalists accuse us of undermining American values. But it’s because we treasure American values that demands that we take on these economic royalists. What they are really afraid of is that we seek to limit their power. And they are right in this assertion. They say not to arouse their disfavor. Well let me tell you- - I welcome their Hatred!” When would you ever hear THIS from a Presidential candidate today? Another popular Hartman speech is Democrat Ronald Reagan giving a plug for the Democratic Party in 1948. You will remember that Truman accused the 1946 congress of being a “Do Nothing Congress”. He ran on this platform, and he won. Ronald Reagan said of them “We continue to see an erosion of the purchasing power of the common man and wages are not keeping up with inflation”. The last time Reagan made a speech for a democrat was in 1950 campaigning for Helen Douglas, the “pink lady” against Richard Nixon. Reagan soon afterward met Nancy and went to work for G E Theater in 1954 and it was all over. What the President needs to do this Thursday is to crank up the rhetoric WAY up. He really does need to “Go Big”. In fact if I were him, I’d make it a speech of “shock and awe”. I’d have those Republicans so stunned afterward they “won’t know whether to shit or wind a wrist watch”, to quote Jack Nicholson. Actually, failing this, I’d like to see the President announce in the spirit of LBJ’s March 31^st 1968 speech that “I will not seek, and I will not accept my party’s nomination for President”. That would make my day, as it should make the day of any liberal out there. It would be a real burden off our collective minds, and the removal of a major albatross and bar to our winning the Presidential election next year. There is one other issue where democrats have to be “proactive” and this is the matter of energy and global warming. I have been inclined to put this issue on the back burner myself. But we can’t do that. In today’s Stephanie Miller show replay there is talk about “Even if you believe Jesus really IS coming back soon, don’t you want to make sure the planet is as clean as the one he left you with?” After all you don’t want to be like a bunch of teenagers who party all weekend and trash the house and then just leave it all for when the parent’s return- - and they’ll all be out to the movies and by the time they get back home their parents will have forgotten about the whole thing. “- - -Right!”

Of course now there are roomers the President has gotten into Astrology and is concerned about the “void of course moon” and therefore wanted to delay his speech from the original Tuesday the 6^th date. I remember Jack Bradford, the Astrologer talking about the “void of course moon” and that’s one astrology term I never learned. It has to do with the moon being on the cusp between one sign and another. I feel like I’ve been under a void of course moon or something the last day or so. “I hear the voices”, as President Bush is famous for saying. In a paragraph from yesterday I talk about having a “funny feeling”. What do you do with those “funny feelings”, try and figure out what they mean or just ignore them. “I’ve got a head full of ideas that are driving me insane” to quote Dylan. Of course, we already have the Rain. Maybe I’ve been feeling a little mentally unhinged lately because of this over-sized lobotomized clone of me walking around in here. I tried to talk to him the other day. He “hears the voices”, and I knew that he was a little too non compus mentus to have any kind of real conversation with. If I decide to use the two whacko paragraphs from yesterday it will be kind of a “Data dump” which id a D BASE IV term, you programmers. It just means to dump all the raw date out there- - all my mental musings, and it’s up to you people to take the raw ingredients to Chef Ramsey and ask him for suggestions as to how to prepare them to make them edible. If he says “Here’s the food dumpster- - leave them for the homeless people to scavenge through”, then I’ll say “Well, I tried”. If you are a fan of the Beatle’s White Album, particularly Revolution 9, you’ll love these two paragraphs. We all know the Beatles didn’t really HAVE an album but “Here’s some stuff we’ve been tinkering around with, in case any of us decides to put out a solo album”. Of course we know George Martin was AWOL during the White and “Let It Be” albums. But I want to talk about curses a little. Bob Dylan alludes to Curses in at least three different early songs, “The Times they are a Changing”, “Seven Curses” and “Rambling, Gambling Willy”. As you know I think I put a curse on myself in late May of 2008 when I said something to God like “I’d give anything just to let Barock Obama at least have a chance as President”. Well you know what they say about getting what you wish for. Now I’m like that guy who keeps pressing Control-C over and over again in a DOS computer program gone bad, and one of the times it’s going to stick. Hearing of Obama’s demise would take a burden off of me personally. Ever since about September first of 2008 a jinx descended on me. In late 2010 my fortunes began to take a glint of a turn for the better. Of course this was right after the 2010 midterm elections. Of course in the material under discussion I talk a lot about Howard Richards, who was a walk-in after a certain American Author did a “spellbound” number on himself. Ah yes. “Howard just pointed with his gun he said that way down HWY 61”. (Dylan) Clearly I believe Dylan was channeling “Howard” alias you know who. I’ve give you more hints about this famous author you smart ones will pick up on. (and the rest of you Dumb ones don’t deserve to know- - till you get smart) This Author regarded himself as a Hero or perhaps Anti-Hero in the American tradition. He saw himself as a social crusader, and there is the whole “Spanish connection”. (“See the Spaniard eating chocolates”) And we know how he loved the bull fights. And there is the whole “Howard the Gunslinger” mythology of ours from 1981 based on the “Desperado” album by the Eagles. And we can surmise that Dylan was a fan of this guy since he “channeled him” in lyrics of his mid ‘sixties albums. Almost all the stuff in these next two paragraphs is old stuff- like 1981 through about 1984. But first of all here is Dick Chaney from yesterday - - -. Sometimes old Dickey boy comes up with some good ideas- - one in particular that I’m fond of.

I was looking at a lot of stuff on computer this afternoon and then hit upon a short video on Dick Chaney. Then I dialed into the long 22 minute interview or whatever on FOX, which was good. I am not wholly in disagreement with the things Dick Chaney was saying. He’s optimistic about prospects of living a long life, and hopes one day to get a heat transplant, but he hasn’t decided on that yet. I agree when he said he supported Kay Bailey Hutchenson over Rick Perry. And he also encouraged Hillary Clinton to run against President Obama. We both agree a healthy democratic primary would be a good thing at this point. Also I am inclined to believe Dick Chaney’s accounts of encounters with other people in the Bush Administration over others’. And I also agree that we should have taken out that Syrian nuclear reactor that Israel eventually had to take care of. Obviously my fondness for him ends there, and Dick has obviously drunk the tea party Kool-Aid on economic issues. Then I turned on KLOS alias K-Loss radio and listened to a whole bunch of songs. At the commercial break I went outside for a smoke and came back in and listened to more music till dinner time, which comes early in these parts.

Since Blogger may be watching I’m going to keep the next Wickipedia name a secret. As you know I believe I lived in the mid 1800’s. Mal Evans contacted me this morning and said some stuff indicating he may have known me then. This life line-up is already an all star cast of names, known and unknown to you. Besides possibly Mal Evans we have Dennis Wilson of the Beach Boys, who appears as a teenage admirer of mine named Charlie. Of course there is Jim Cooper, not to mention Robin, and also Dick Llyle, but they aren’t married to each other here. Robin was my wife, but don’t worry, I didn’t exercise the renewal option in the contract. Also Bob Dylan was a known personage to me in this life. He was killed during my life time and I alledgedly said of him, “He was more sinned against than sinner”. Pertaining to the “house on the hill” I bought someone once said of it “Wow, you can see clean into next week from here”. Oh, and Ron Rhodes was also in this life. Can’t forget him. But there is no Howard. I researched all the principals and he wasn’t there. Mal Evans committed what must now be seen as the “unpardonable sin” of becoming a Born Again Christian later in life, but not till 1912 just a few years before his death. He was the oldest “principal” yet he lived the longest. I’ll give his first name, Cole, short for Colman, just as Mal is short for Malcolm. I idolized Colman, who in turn was a disciple of a guy named Clement, who in turn was a disciple of a Confederate who was killed, whose name Civil War buffs would recognize, particularly for those inclined twords Southern sympathies. Jim Cooper was in this life also and his name was really Jim in this life. He committed suicide in 1902 however. I admire that. Who needs the 20^th Century? Also in my life then, I seemed to suffer from something Elvis also suffered from, and that was a fear of being around the water. I had something else in common with Elvis. I liked to enjoy a good cigar after dinner. And while I didn’t drink alcohol, I wasn’t above using various apothecary concoctions you could buy legally in those days. There is a conflict among biographers as to whether I was faithful to my wife. Some say I enjoyed the ladies of the evening. Well I think a John Boehner “compromise” is in order here. I did a little of both. But there is no Howard in this life. Then I checked the Wickepedia for another prominent name and I may have struck pay dirt there. It’s a famous individual, but he was SO famous as Wickepedia points out that you can’t believe half of what’s been written about him. The question is - - can you believe Wickepedia? This individual was more of a creature of the Wild West than I myself was. This individual died in my lifetime, too, and I admired him despite the fact that he was a “Nauthener”. Even though I admired him - - I’d have to admit that he was most likely a much better marksman than I was. Besides I’m just not that trigger happy. In one movie about a parody of this guy’s life I suspect - (precursor of Howard Richard)’s life he is said to have remarked near the end of his life “I never shot anybody that didn’t need killing”. His motto was pretty much “I don’t take shit from anybody” and Wickipedia goes into amazingly tedious detail about his life, right down to the brand of toothpaste he used to brush his teeth the morning before he died. A new fact Hollywood might have gleaned was this guy got an adverse report from his doctor soon before his death, and just maybe (there is a hint) he may have engineered his own demise. This guy seemed to use Indians for target practice. That wasn’t my thing. Bob Dylan recorded one song which may well be about his life except for one small error. He did have a wife, but if you blink you missed it. There is a line on that BLT album that goes “He always rose to every bait”. I learned that in Howard’s famous subsequent life, he was a journalist before he was a novel writer. I admire an individual with the heart of a news reporter. The word “ambulance” appears at least two Dylan songs and in this life Howard worked as an ambulance driver early on. One thing notably missing from this article were all the women he no doubt had affairs with. I guess Barock Obama’s team has scrubbed this article of that. (Where are the Obama bimbos?) And apparently he didn’t like Army life because he was discharged under mysterious circumstances. The two things he was most famous for we obviously are omitting. Alright, ice cream call! Time to pay a call on my Mormon friends!

We're going to leave the wierdest stuff out, therefore the following paragraph will be severely truncated from what I originally wrote. You people aren't ready for it yet. We now take to to last night. ----- I’m going to save the ice cream details to the next file. Suffice it to say I dined and dashed because there were so many people in there and I thought Loretta wanted her seat back because my old one had plates of ice cream on it. I went to the patio for a smoke and noticed the sky ablaze. It was one of the most amazing sunsets I’ve seen in my life. It had this vivid “red mist” quality but it’s like it was in 3 D. I stared at it in disbelief. You’d have to see it to know what I’m talking about. Bill came up and asked for shorts and he didn’t hang around for seconds either, assuming they didn’t run out. I came back here and AFV was on and I left it going.

Slogging Through A Sea of Moral Darkness

. President Obama will be giving his Jobs speech on Wednesday September 7^th. We’ve been hearing forever about this impending speech, and now anticipation has raised expectations greatly.. House Speaker John Boehner originally accepted the invitation to address congress. But at noon Rush Limbaugh got on the air and started spewing - and others were outraged Obama would preempt a Republican event as the Reagan library. The Republicans are having a major debate this night, which will actually be televised. Rush said something about “They need to put this man in his place”. Well, his “place” is leader of the free world. Rush Limbaugh did just about everything except refer to the President as “Boy!” Then suddenly at four in the afternoon after Rush is off the air, John Boehner says “Well they need the additional 24 hours for a security sweep”, as if it would take 24 hours to do that. However this part of it they didn't have on any news I heard yesterday. I only found it out early this morning. There seems to be no lengths the republican right won’t stoop to. There are a lot of decent, ordinary Americans on our side who truly care about their country. I just have my doubts about our sides ability to organize anything because these “conserva-dems” seem to be taking over. Bill Press kept saying the President needs to “Go Big”. Actually I think Mc Donalds took that off the menu as an option, because of all the nanny state protests. The only reason why the President would offer up a grandiose program is that he knows it's the only air time he's going to get and the last time in a long time Republicans won't be controling the news cycle. I was up fairly early again and turned on Bill Press and brewed coffee. Then I learned that President Obama had actually capitulated to John Boehner last night and decided to deliver his speech on Thursday evening September 8^th after all. I was flabberghasted. How could a President of the United States be refused by the House leader from speaking when he wanted? The “optics” on this are really bad. It’s shades of President Truman being forced to wait for General Mc Arthur to arrive late so that he could make his grand enterence. Regardless of what you thought of it personally, the damage it would do to the Office of President would set a devastating precident, and therefore could not be permitted. It seems that Ed Schultz and Bill Press agree with me on this issue that the President should never have backed down. Stephanie Miller thought it was no big thing. So I’m making a mental note to listen to more of Ed Schultz and Bill Press and less of Stephanie Miller. As to the “optics” of the issue, Pete Richards is a master of that. For instance going back - - I declared myself as a Born Again Christian on March 24^th 1976. My first Bible study attended was May 10^th 1976. That’s six weeks and five days later, if your counting. That means there were six whole Mondays I could have been invited to a Bible Study at his house and never was. If I had gone the logical thing would be for him to introduce me as his brother and that I just became a Born Again Christian. But by the time I actually did attend one I was relegated to part of the furniture. President Johnson was interested in the “optics” of a situation, like taking the oath of office right there in Texas, even though at that time the constitution did not require a Vice President to take the Presidential Oath, I don’t think. Also on those tapes where he had these cordial conversations with Jackie Kennedy- - LBJ knew would make for a good historic record that the two were getting along. My complaint about President Obama is that in backing down on this issue of the dates of his speech- - he does what he does best and forfeits that football game before the team even takes the field. If he can’t win on this issue, how can he possibly expect to get his way on anything he says in his speech one week from now? This is truly an era of moral darkness we are living in.

The Republicans are going to have eight or more debates in the coming months. The first is on the 7^th and the 2^nd will be on the 12^th and the third will be September 22^nd. Obviously it will be the first time America gets to see Rick Perry in a debate situation. There may well be a “sudden death” debate where Perry says something really awful and loses everybody’s support. I don’t know how many Republicans will be debating. Will it just be Perry, Romney, Bachman and Ron Paul? Or will there be a conspiracy to freeze Ron Paul out of it altogether? So will there be questioners? What will they say on alternative energy or is it just “drill baby drill” and strip mining for them? What do they feel about US corporations paying the second lowest effective taxes in the developed world? There has been talk anew about limiting the salaries of CEO’s. Some have said that “all corporate taxes do is cut the pay of workers, and raise the price of goods, and cut the dividends of stocks that old ladies rely on each quarter”. Somehow I get the fleeting suspicion that isn’t the whole story. Some US corporations don’t pay any taxes at all such as G E, Capital Cities, and Vorizon. And the solar energy situation doesn’t look that bright. They say that China is under-cutting US solar energy corporations because most other countries in the world subsidize solar power. Well if that’s so then Americans should be buying a lot of solar cells made in China. But they aren’t. It seems clear that solar can’t make it on its own. To tell you the truth I think Rick Perry is a jinx. Ever since he announced that fateful Saturday of August 14^th - - my life has had jinxes. I sense a pall hanging over me. We are descending into moral darkness in this country.

In Libya they celebrated the end of Romadon as well as the end of the Qadafi regime. Football season is upon us in the colleges. Sonny told his parents about a week ago that he would be transferring to Salem U in the fall. Given soap opera time where one day takes two weeks, I wonder where Sonny found the time? Well guess what? “The Fall” is upon us. It’s August 31, 2011 and this summer has gone by a lot more quickly for me than the previous two summers. I’ve been writing fewer E mail letters to both of my brothers. I haven’t heard anything about a Labor Day barbecue yet. We only have a few waning days of summer stagnation in the media.

. I reread “The Final Disappointment” from just after Dad died. I thought I could use some political excerpts in a new posting as a refresher or at least do an outline and base my remarks on that. But the posting just wasn’t that relavent for right now. The Jeopardy Final is finishing up now. I want to check one more thing now. I checked back around August 9^th. Interestingly this was the time of the big loss in the Wisconsin primary. That may have affected my overall psychic protective aura just like the Sarah Palin thing did, and I became vulnerable to jinxes. They started in a few days later. This was that Beatle album blitz, and also the Larry Barton talking marathon at night. So my sleeping patterns were disturbed that night. . Last night I had another of those troubling dreams. I dreamed I was at San Diego State College, I believe, and I was in a dorm room, and there was this neo Nazi group on campus. It was actually sort of a Satanic group that sacrificed and tortured animals too, that was based in Dallas originally. I remember lying in bed having to go to the bathroom and I figured “I’ll get up and go to where the bathroom is in the other part of the house, when it’s safe. After this I transferred to Cerritos College (?) or some College “to the northwest”. And this same Nazi cult was active on campus there, too. It seems they were on a lot of college campuses now. Then I transferred to Cal State Fullerton, but that campus looked somehow different from what it actually looks like. I was out in the athletic area and it looked like some military environment with a lot of quansit huts and such. And these people were playing mind games and everything with me and I just wished they would go away but they didn’t. At some point I told someone or blurted out “I’m never attending a California State campus again” and- - about that same day a lot of arrests were made of members, but still a lot remained. Then I thought I woke up, but I was in some auditorium and I was talking to people in the next row in front and complaining- and one of them almost laughingly said “I smell sour grapes. You’re just mad because your balls got wrecked in one of their little experiments”. I didn’t know what he was talking about and didn’t want to know, either. I woke up. It was a quarter to one. I decided to go out for a cigarette even though I had only four left. When I got out there and felt cold just there in an under shirt. Larry was out there and I knew that was bad news, because likie two weeks ago he engaged in one of these non stop chatter marathons where he talked about everything from details of his finances to going to see his girlfriend on Monday. I’m still not sort of relation Larry has with Linda, but I’m not certain he’d tell me the truth, either. Basically you have a guy with a reputation for bullshit going on and on in everything in the greatest of detail. He mentioned that he was getting an inheritance from his family of two hundred thousand dollars. I asked no questions. I didn’t want to give him the least bit of encouragement. He said when he got the money he was going to sign it all over to this place and from that account he would take out three hundred dollars a week. I asked “Why would you want to do that?” I didn’t get a very coherent answer except “I like it here”. I hurried and finished my cigarette and then went in. I remember thinking just as I climed back into bed something like "Gee if President Obama said he wasn't running next year it would sure as hell change the political balance for the better".

I finally saw that Mickey guy that Wally mentioned the other day. He said there was a guy in here that looked just like me except there was some height discrepancy. He was six feet one inch. Well I saw him at last this morning in the medication line and I think he’s taller than that. But he indeed looks amazingly like me. Loretta was generally in a pushy mood today. But in particularly she made two remarks to me that were inexplicable and negative. Food service was really slow and we didn’t get out of there till a quarter to eight. That isn’t a record but not too far from it. I remember when they didn’t used to open the doors till five or ten after seven. Now they obviously open them up before seven but I never arrive there that early. We had oatmeal and Loretta had two bowls. Then there was the real long wait before the main course. We had scrambled eggs and one piece of French toast with not enough syrup on it. I continued to have Stephanie Miller on but I don’t know why. Thom Hartman was back today.

Of course you know Nicholas on DL was right when he said that if someone dies it ends any chance of theirs for “rehabilitation” or whatever. If you are a Calvinist you believe that nothing happens without God’s will, indeed, pre-ordainment. Sometimes I am troubled by hypothetical events I don't know for sure have happened. For instance the guy fighting in the jungles of Viet Nam who is unsaved along with his friend. And the first guy gets killed and the second guy lives to get saved and tell all his stories of glory at some religious arena. You know the guy around here who apparently survived when the rest of his platoon got killed. I'm not sure whether he had other orders or he just lagged behind the rest of his platoon and so didn't get killed So after eleven years and a few weeks I decided to rescind my “decision to renounce Christianity”. I guess I thought it was "the honorable thing to do". God’s response came a number of weeks later when Dad died. I sure wouldn't want to die a death like he died, with all that hospital mal-practice. Obviously he was taken out of my life- - and as such both of us lost the opportunity to improve relations with the other. Obviously all you can do them is “to put the whole thing behind you”. But I have a theory that for every bit of energy you spend surpressing thoughts you wish you didn't have, you sap your strength for facing the future. In like manner I believe the left expendless needless energy rationalizing the deeds of President Obama selling us out, that could be better put to use in a unified push forward. Even Rush Limbaugh says that you lose votes when you forsake your base and try to gain the vote of the illusive independant by selling out.